life in general

Well I dont know If the description cold feet after an act is appropriate but rite now dats d best way to describe how I feel about my newly launched jewelry fan page on FB . I started developing this cold feet especially after viewing some exceptional beautiful creations by other fellow jewelry makers and I begin to get this sinking feeling and ask myself can I match up to thembut you know what Im not going to let this bring me down, Ill forge ahead stronger and Id like to see this as an inspiration to work harder, learn more, build professional friendship with them and be exceptionally professionally creative like them if not greater
Ok thats all I have to say for now , wish me luck on this my journey into success

So Ive decided to take d bull by its horns and open a fan page on fb for my jewellery line and I can’t deny it Im a little frightened about it, to me dis is a huge step cos I really want to be accepted and from dere let d orders begin, my goal is to have 100 fans b4 dec. 20th so help me God.
On a lighter note really wat is it wit me and sleep nowadays, like today for example I woke up early (tho thanks to my mum comin to drag of d bed) and drove down to d bank to collect my atm card, u wuldnt believe it but I was kind of nodding off while driving, despite d fact dat it was a long drive home I still managed to get home and sleep almost d whole day If not for my bobo dat called me only God knows maybe Ill just be waking up now its like all d sleep I had been missing out on all dis while from lack of sleep (which I had to aid with mr lexy)is rushing in with full force abeg sleep I know say I need am but softly softly its even making me tired and Im lagging behind in d amt of jewellery Im supposed to create every day.
Anoda thing , I think our decoder is not working and I hold nepa responsible for dis situation cos if they were givimg us full current and not half current our decoder will be working now, bcos of dem now now Im missing out of Hannah Montana and American dragon, pschew, nonsense. Anyways let me go back to editing and uploading pics of my jewellery on my fan page, will keep u posted on any new gist and yes Im so sorry u were waiting for update on my relationship ehn weelllllllllll, we r good , had a little tiff some days ago ( kind of a big tiff jare) but we've sorted it out and we r back on course, satisfied, can I go now? Thanks

Ive done it again, I wonder wat my mum wuld say wen she gets back home and find out wat Ive done to myself , oh boy I cant wait to see d expression on her face, anyways dis atm card thingy is really not nice oh, I hate wen I dont have money on me ok well I still like 20 naira but wat wuld dat buy me, tom tom I cant wait for friday to come cos dats wen I getting my new card and Ive promised myself to be much more careful wit dis new one , imagine I had to lend 2k from my mum dis morning cos of dis and at end of d day Im left wit nothing I thot my hair was going to cost me 1,300 so dat I can use d change to buy credit on my fone to call my bobo but lo and behold my salon had increased all charges on their services and even owe them 260 naira my hair cost me 2,260 chei cant even buy credit on my fone, dis is where my atm card wuld have been useful cos all I wuld have done is gone to d nearest machine and cashed out more abi, pschew na wa oh and today is wednesday I still have to wait to friday well I guess I dont have a choice sha,thank God for skypeor else Ill be so restless now and Im wondering exactly where my atm card is right now, was is stolen or the machine sucked it only God knows I take my leave now hope to update wen I have something interesting to blog.

ok ok I know dat I said I was going to update my blog later on dat day but its now over a week or so now dont mind me jare maybe cos things have changed since den and Im now a much happier person now and I actually sleep without my lexy nowadays erm except on few occasions sha but still no lexy sha, all I do is stare into d dark or like lastnite wen I channelled my lack of sleep into being productive for my jewellery line, came up wit new creative designs and sored fingers sha.
Well Im sure u r dying to hear my gist but first really wats up wit d deletion of tags, haba kilode, wen I started warming up to d whole tag thingy dey go and delete dem well dey r not serious and dey chasing pple away as well cos my good friend like magical mystery has decided to bail out I do hope he changes his mind cos I do like readin his blog.
Ok o, ere is d gist hmmmmm yeah dis girl got a man now suprised uhmmm Im in love and it's like Im sittin on top of d world, well I know I know finally abi and yes I know u wondering who it is , ehn yes now na my mentor or who did u think it was ehn gosh dis days I feel rather good wit myself its like I dont even know hw to describe hw I feel now. Im dating a guy I love so much and mind u he loves me back too, wow dats a first for me and for d first time in my life Im so sure he loves me tho I must say we did argue some few times in dis short duration which I personally did not enjoy or feel good abt but d good part is we always make up and actually talk abt it, I hate wen pple argue and make up without talkin abt d issue to me dats not making up its increasing d race to d decline of d relationship
Oh dere is dis issue tho,its like his ex keeps showin up on his blog, not dat it used to bother me in d beginning but all of a sudden I go to his blog to find out if she's been dere, its now gettin under my skin and Im kind of worried sort of , its like u know he has been wit her for ova 2 yrs and moi he has just known for 2-3 mnths and u know its like d sayin d devil u know is beta dan d angel u dont know but nah Im just being insecure jo
but seriously she stop oh if she doesnt want me to give d piece of my mind yeah rite like I can do it. Anyways Ive been noticing serious changes in myself like me thinkin +vely more often d former ronnih normally thinks -vely most of d times but more often dis days I see myself as a strong person who can stand up to anyone or anything. ok Im leaving now jare and I know dis time Ill be bacck 2morrow and I mean it cos Ill be here while chattin wit my boo, uhhhhhhhhh I like d sound of dat.

Well afta struggling wit lack of sleep till like six or so I managed to sleep till seven wen my mom came to wake me up, mehn I was so mad at her for dat and guess wat she was lookin for her nightie !! its mornin for good lord sake culdnt it have waited pschew . Anyways there was no way I culd go back to sleep anymore so I remained awake grinding my teeth togeda in oda not to show my annoyance,she leaves for her shop at eight and as Im trying to cajole sleep back my sista decided it was time for a bb session with her toaster which she likes by d way so everything they were saying to eachoda she was saying out aloudi was so mad and jealous where I was . i felt like going across d room , collecting her bb and flinging it awaybut no I didnt I just sucked it all in and lo and behold all d tears I had been holdin back thru out d nite started flowing out silly tear glands haha culdnt dey have been strong for me gosh I felt soooooooo lonely, good thing she didnt detect my misery or tears sha cos I was hiding under my duvet cos I wuldnt have known wat to tell her and i really did not want to talk about it wit anybodi anyway....sighs
wel afta a while I got up and decided I was going to my dad's office to going and complete yesterday's mission which was to scan my payslip and my booking form to my intended school. God knows how many trailers I felt like driving unda but as usual d chicken in me wuldnt , and yet again mrs teary glands decided she had to let out more waterworks on my behalf mehn it was uncontrollable , Ive not felt like dis since I discovered my last ex was actually married, I just started asking why me , dont I desrve to be happy at all well I managed to get to my dad's office in one piece sha and oh on my way I decided to call him yeah rite my execuse was dat I had pomised to call but really all I wanted was to hear his voice and mayb just mayb I wuld actually find out it was all a dream and we had moved it to a next level.........got my dad's office did my usual bit of teasing him and tried scanning d bloody payslip and booking form mehn it took foreva and in d process he came online and we start chatting again, I dont even know how to describe the set of emotions dat runnig thru my veins while we were chatting,dey were so mush , there Mr Misery and and loving his loving wife Despair, their child anger and and their next door neighbour Miss Longing and her useless byfriend MR Fruitless wishes and hopes. ok managed to send the stuff evetually and headed home again, mehn d moment I got home I just crashed on my bed didnt know where dat sleep came from I appreciate it for a while till I thot OH MY GOD dat means Im not going to be able to sleep in nite againanyways here I am narrating today's trend i know Im still coming back ere later on due to fact my damn evil sleep just does not like me well got to go for now till later ciao

well here I am again I hope dis not being able to sleep trend wuld stop oh cos Im not harming anybodi but myself the person Im losing sleep ova is most likely snoring right now, im awake thinkin pschew, at least dis time around I actually hope ive learned my lessons, do not fall , I repeat fall easily in love ,cos it brings nothing but heartbreak,hmmmmmmmmmmmm, na wa oh, damm I think ive run out of my lexy, I wonda if my mum still has but how do I look for it without waking her aaaaarrrrrgghh, man sleep u beta come, I seriously want to sleep jare.
I wonder if there are head shrinks in this country I need to engage one, he/she shuld have head examined for meloool, see me oh any normal person shuldnt be laffing abt this but as usual I use laughter as an escape for my pain.ok dats im going to my mum's room I cant even afford to be awake all nite long like yesterday,enuff is enuff In fact no more love life on this page I must start talking about oda things in my life like my school for instance no more love, all dat stupidity shuld stop, u dis tink abt ur career and life and a sucessful jeweller at least dat one wont disappoint and can always be worked on if anything happen.
I dont need dis rite now,not all. haha 3:00 amnd Im still at alert ehn, well im listening to ciara's never.At least ill start going back to d gym Ive not been there in a while,need to drop d weight I added and more gan.>:this is just mega

I just cant sleep, dont know wat to do,Ive cried,Ive given up,Ive prayed, Ive listened to music to soothen my sorrow and even my lexotan is not working and I kind of O.D.ed on the drug gan sef(I used it with piriton) but sleep has refused to come. my eyes r swollen and heavy and really want to sleep cos Im tired of thinking, na wa oh wetin I go do now, iwaju oshe lo, eyin oshe pada si, Ive wished and wished dis nite did not happen but sorri sista it did happen, but even if it had to end why dis way God I really need d strength to push on thru.
And God pls send sleep fast oh , I don kolo for here.

ok rememba my mentor dat I mentioned dat I liked, well we kind of decided to see if it was going to work sha Im not sure it was a relationship but we were both fasting on it but we had expressed our feelings to eachoda sha,dat was yesterday oh today is d second day of the 3 day fast and unfortunately for today chattin wit him on webcam I recieved a phone call from a guy dat is a toaster but call me whenever he likes and we just yarn and I keep givin him d same old answer NO,unfortunately my guy did not like it, he says I was disrespectin him God Im so miserable rite now cos I really wanted dis to work, I wish I knew he wuldnt like it mayb I wuld have more diplomatic wit d toaster guy and just gotten off d fone,cos now I know he is probably goin to move on and not talk to me again but I honestly wish he could trust me a little cos I know I wuld have na wa oh he keeps saying i shuld stop playing dat card I wish he could stop thinking everybodi is playing games wit him and I dont believe dat being in a relationship is a game ,dont know wat to do.

IM beginning to think dat dere is sumthing wrong wit sexually wen it come to men, maybe Im a lesbian in d making and I dont just know. Ok oh wat Im I going to do now cos at this point now even d guy I like thinks Im sexually selfish na wa oh wetin I go do u now, I need to do sumthing about myself

hi ya, quite a while, its been quite a while (like 2yrs) since I posted anything on my blog,WOW, lots have happened believe me.
I dont even know where to start from, lemme see did masters in enviromental chemistry for a while, worked for while, currently doin nothin ,wellllllllll im trying to enrol in a jewellery school sha since i discovered dat im actually creative....lol, seriously I am.
My love life dats anoda story entirely, long and short of it im still single .Sometimes cool about it sometimes worried dat ill probably stay single even consirdering switching to lesbianism....lol at least I dont have to worry about heartbreaks.
Okay truth be told there is guy sha , no be say there is anything btw us sha but im actually hoping there is infact praying hard gan sefits just dat how d i put it, there r some issues dat r kind of difficult to solve rite.
Oh and Im into personal development now, I intend developing my mind and dway think about my self and God I just want to grow ,chase away all d negativity around me and be a person ,an achiever in my new creative line oh and d name is FARAH ie my jewellery line and ok, ok there is atwist to d gist my mentor is d guy Im hoping and praying to go into relatonship with hehehehe crazy abi

Well dats all i have to say about dat now, hope to update soon, i mean very soon. ciao.